There comes a point in life where you realize how much you are worth, how much you deserve, and how much you should be appreciated. There comes times in life where you are tested, and one day... you realize that the things that truly matter--really don't matter at all. The sting from tears was just dust, the emptiness that sat in your stomach was just a fart, and the little voice in your head is indeed your conscious. (and sadly... just like yr mother, it was right.) There comes a day in your life were you really just dont give a damn (sorry grandma :/) You don't care if your socks don't match, you dont care what you look like without makeup, and you really don't give a flying piece of crap who did who. You soon realize that it takes more strength to LET GO, than it is to hold on... and then you sit there and think, "Did I really just waste all that time in life worrying about this?" "Did I really worry about what the girl thought of my hair?" I worried about this... when I should have focused on this more? (yes, momma... you are right) In order to grow from your mistakes, the first step is to plant the seed.... You put the past to sleep, you barry your burdens into the ground, forget about the friendship that didn't work, forget about the relationship that crumbled, forget about the names you were called, and know that you deserve better.
Second step, you need to nurture the seed, in order to grow it takes time, altering, and fighting the demons that you will soon face. You provide yourself with plently of sunlight and positivity, you have to often remind yourself that this is only temporary, that this little situation will soon disappear within weeks of realizing what you deserve (hence the repetition of the "REALIZING WHAT YOU DESERVE.") Water the seeds with the tears, with all pain comes emotion... empty the pain from within... and it will hurt less than it did than the day before.
Third step, protect your seeds from weeds. Weeds wrap their roots around plants and suck all the nutrients that the plant needs inorder to survive. Surround yourself around people who will rise you up and not suck out all of your energy, rebuild the walls you let down, and shelter yourself from the evil of the world.
Fourth Step, every plant blooms, the beauty only lasts for a while and then too, this beautiful plant will welt again, know that with this routine, new flowers will bloom, and you will once again realize one more thing in your life, it's a never ending cycle and you will always have to rid something in your life, but don't let random kids pick you up out of the ground and do what they please with you.
Stand your ground... don't look back, and put the negatives to sleep.
